How I Felt About Not Dancing on Simchat Torah
For years I danced on Simchat Torah, at times holding a Torah scroll, and I enjoyed that.
But that all changed when a year ago we left our old ‘hood for a new one, where the general practice is that women and girls watch the men dancing around and around instead of dancing ourselves.
This might sound kind of depressing, but the truth is I feel differently about it.
Rabbanit Yemima reminds us every year that for us JewishMOMs holding up the Torah isn’t just a Simchat-Torah thing, it’s something we do all year long.
We JewishMOMs work so very, very hard the entire year enabling our children and our husbands to go off and learn Torah and sometimes teach Torah. Some of us even make some time in our crazy busy lives to learn and teach some Torah ourselves.
We continue holding up the Torah even when we don’t feel well, even when we are SO tired, even when it’s very difficult. Because we know that is what being a JewishMOM is all about.
So this Simchat Torah, sitting in my seat, watching my husband dance around and around with our 1-year-old on his shoulders, our 4 and 6 year olds clinging to his tallis, and our 9-year-old a few steps ahead, I felt the intense pleasure of pure, unadulterated nachas.
As I sat there, I felt Hashem whispering in my ear, “Chana Jenny, you work so hard holding up my Torah all year long. Today is a gift for you to just enjoy and rest and, in your heart, just today, dance with Me.”